drinkerofsorrow

fuck u guys ur getting another song.

2004-06-29T16:08:28Z

fuck u guys ur getting another song. this is perfect for right now

DEEP INSIDE

I'm not doing great
I feel like I'm dead
Not thinking straight
Inside my body, troubled, full of hate
I had to let it out before it's too late

Deep Inside, It can hide!
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside

Why won't it fade
Outside I had to lie; "I'm ok",
I hope someday, I'll stop getting pain
I guess this is a lie, I have made

Deep Inside, It can hide!
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside

What am I doing?
I can't believe this
I have been hiding
Wanting to be less
Giving to people,
They take from me
Always they bring drama to me

Look, look at me now
NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside

I CAN'T STAND ALL OF THIS FUCKING PAIN
PLEASE GOD JUST GO AWAY
PLEASE GOD JUST MAKE THE PAIN...

Rachel is cool

2004-06-19T00:31:26Z

Rachel is cool...

drinkerofsorrow @ 2004-05-27T22:18:00

2004-05-28T03:21:21Z

Ladies and gentlemen.. of the G.E.D. class of 1999
I have one piece of advice for you
No matter what a stripper tells you
There's no sex in the Champagne Room.. NONE!
Oh there's CHAMPAGNE in the Champagne Room
But you don't want champagne.. you want sex
And there's NO sex.. in the Champagne Room

Don't go to parties with metal detectors
Sure it feels safe inside; but what about
all those niggaz waitin outside with guns?
They know you ain't got one..
If a woman tells you she's 20 and looks 16.. she's 12
If she tells you she's 26, and LOOKS 26.. she's damn near 40
Take off that silly-ass hat
The O.D.B. couldn't have possibly committed all those crimes
Coolio did some of that shit
Young black men -- if you go to a movie theater
and someone steps on your foot, let it SLIIIDE
Why spend the next twenty years in jail
cause someone smudged your Puma?
Cornbread -- ain't nuttin wrong with that
No matter what you think of what I'm sayin
Remember this one thing: there is no sex, in the Champagne Room

Ooooohh...
No sex in the Champagne Room (6X)
Absolutely, positively, no sex in the Champagnnnne, Room
No.. no-ohhhhh...

If a homeless person.. has a funny sign..
he hasn't been homeless that long
A +REAL+ homeless person, is too hungry, to be funny

If a girl has a pierced tongue - she'll probably suck your dick
That'd be great..
If a guy has a pierced tongue - he'll probably suck your dick
I don't want that, no..
Here's a horoscope for everyone:
Aquarius: You're gonna die
Capricorn: You're gonna die
Gemini: You're gonna die TWICE
Leo: You're gonna die
Scorpio: You're gonna die fuckin
Ohh yeah..
No one goes to Hooters for wings
No no no..
If you've been dating a man for four months
and you haven't met any of his friends, you are NOT his girlfriend!
Some of the things I've said may not apply to you
Some of the things I've said may offend you
But no matter who you are, you must remember this one thing
No matter what a stripper says
There's no sex in the Champagne Room
NONE

No sex in the Champagne Room
Said no sex in the Champagne Room
No sex in the Champagne Room
No no sex in the Champagne Room
No sex in the Champagne Room
Can't get none, uhh
Can't have none, nah
in the Champagne Room
Said there's absolutely, positively
no sex in the Champagne Room
Said no.. no..
Said no-ohhhh..
Said Chris said..
There ain't no sex
in the Champagne Room.. no.. no.. no..
Can't get none, ahh
Can't have none.. *fades*

wow been a while.

2004-05-06T23:06:56Z

ok ppl cept on yelling at me to put a real entry in here and not a songs cause its been a while since i did put something in here. so what did u miss. well school still sucks as usual. MRS JANICEK MADE ME LOOSE IN SPOONS TODAY AND I GOT PISSED. but then after i laughed and kicked ass. well i guess i didnt do so bad at the track meet yesterday even tho i did and that totally didnt make sense but u no what i mean. 2nd for 4x2, 3rd for 4x4, and 5th over all for 400m. yea i wish i did better but thats ok, at least i got points. good job jake on getting 1st for 400m. so what else did u guys miss. i got a new gf from crone named brianna. i love her. but i feel bad cause i hurt marissa and i promised her i wouldnt but i did anyways. im sry again marissa. ha ok well i think this was funny and u guys might not but i dont care im going to tell u anyways. ok so one day my dad was picking me up from track and me and him were both having a bad day. ok so he is driving and we see mikey and jimmy bojak, mike G. and ryan K. skateboarding. and then when my dad was trying to get past then jimmy or mikey i dono they both look the same. one of them didnt no that we were there so my dad roles down the window and yells out "MOVE FAG BOY". i thought that was so funny i died laughing. whew anyways dont want to type anymore. im gone

~kurtis~

spit it out

2004-04-30T04:37:24Z

spit it out

Since you never gave a damn in the first place
Maybe it’s time you had the tables turned
Cuz in the interest of all involved I got the problem solved
And the verdict is GUILTY...

...man nearly killed me
steppin where you fear to tread
Stop, drop and roll - you were dead from the git-go!
Big mouth fucker - stupid cocksucker
Are you scared of me now? then you’re dumber than I thought
Always is, never was
Foundation made of piss and vinegar
Step to me, I’ll smear ya -think I fear ya? bullshit!
Just another dumb punk chompin’ at this tit
Is there any way to break through the noise?
Was it something that I said that got you bent?
It’s gotta be that way if you want it
Sanity, literal profanity hit me!

SPIT! - IT OUT!
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out
SPIT! - IT OUT!
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out

Maybe it’s the way you spread a lotta rumour fodder
Keepin’ all your little spies and leavin’ when you realise
Step up, fairy
I guess it’s time to bury your ass with the chrome
Straight to the dome
You heard that right, bitch, I didn’t stutter
If you know what’s good - sit, shut up and beg, brother
Backstab - don’t you know who you’re dissin’?
Side swipe - we know the ass that you’re kissin’!
Bigidy-biggidy bitch boy, halfway hauser
Can’t hear shit cuz I keep gettin’ louder
Step up, and you get a face full o’ tactic
Lippin’ off hard, goin’ home in a basket
You got no pull, no power, no nuthin’
Now you start shit? well, ain’t that somethin’?
Payoffs don’t protect, and you can’t hide if you want
But I’ll find you - comin’ up behind you!

SPIT! - IT OUT!
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out
SPIT! - IT OUT!
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out

’bout time I set this record straight
All the needlenose punchin’ is makin’ me irate
Sick o’ my bitchin’ fallin’ on deaf ears
Where you gonna be in the next five years?
The crew and all the fools, and all the politix
Get your lips ready, gonna gag, gonna make you sick
You got dick when they passed out the good stuff
Bam
Are you sick of me? good enough - had enough

FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!
FUCK ME! I'M ALL OUT OF ENEMIES!

SPIT! - IT OUT!
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out
SPIT! - IT OUT!
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out

glycerine

2004-04-23T03:25:00Z

glycerine

Must be your skin that I’m sinking in
Must be for real cause now I can feel
And I didn’t mind
It’s not my kind
Not my time to wonder why
Everything’s gone white
And everything’s grey
Now you’re here now you’re away
I don’t want this
Remember that
I’ll never forget where you’re at

Don’t let the days go by
Glycerine
Glycerine

I’m never alone
I’m alone all the time
Are you at one
Or do you lie
We live in a wheel
Where everyone steals
But when we rise it’s like strwaberry fields
I treated you bad
You bruise my face
Couldn’t love you more
You got a beautiful taste

Don’t let the days go by
Could have been easier on you
I couldn’t change though I wanted to
Could have been easier by three
Our old friend fear and you and me
Glycerine
Glycerine
Don’t let the days go by
Glycerine
Glycerine

I needed you more
When we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
It might just be
Clear simple and plain
That’s just fine
That’s just one of my names

Don’t let the days go by
Could’ve been easier on you
Glycerine

kurt

P.S. this song is one of the saddest song ever if u understand it all. just think about it and yea

drinkerofsorrow @ 2004-04-21T21:56:00

2004-04-22T03:34:59Z

today sucked too. today i lost my outline this morning so i couldnt practice for english today, that was gay. then at track i did bad on the 100m and got 13.08 (ha ok i did .04 worse the last time but i still sucked). well i did ok on high jump. i won 200m but that doesnt count cause i wasnt racing denton, anton, jeremy, or rowan so yea. then my mom comes like 89247289472984732984723498739487234283472934729723984384793479284 hours late to pick me up from track and to top that she didnt have money so i could by food. ha o well. ha ok today wasnt that bad. me and marissa broke up tho. im not really in the happiest mood cause i have things to say that i shall wait to say til i get some more time to think about this whole thing an yea i just dont want to talk about it right now. and i couldnt find a sub for my soccer games saturday. o well i got tomorow to look. i dont want to go to school tomorow. i just want a day were i could just relax and be happy for a bit. o well guess thats not going to happen. well my mom is kicking me off now so i gone. going to bed even tho im not going to sleep im just going to think about this whole thing. hope u had fun today kids. yea

kurt

drinkerofsorrow @ 2004-04-18T22:38:00

2004-04-19T03:39:59Z

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
21. If I was an ice cream flavour, which would I be and why?
22. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
23. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
24. Do you consider me a good friend?
25. What makes me, me?
26. Would you make a move on me?
27. Do I cross your mind at least 2 times a day?

saw on marissa lj so yea i wanted to fit in.

meh

2004-04-18T22:05:14Z

today sucked too. i had a soccer game at 12:10 today and we blowed in that game, it was 1-2.we lost. o well. i think these kids r out to get me cause there was another kid on this team that would just stand infront of me and box me out. i let it go by the first 2 times but when he did it a third time i was just like, fuck up. i pushed him over and it was funny. haha take that. Marissa i think ur right. im to violent when it comes to sports. its soccer tho and its an aggressive sport and the guys needed to no i dont take shit. ha well they got it cause they didnt do it anymore. for some reason every soccer tournament that i go to its seems lik there always 1 team of girls that stalk me. i was at the food thing and there were there and then i walked to the field where i had o play my game and they all followed me and watched my game. i was a lil freaked out but hey i dont blame them. ha jk. after that i was listening to my CDs in the car ride home and i was thinking a lot. then i came home and just sat on my ass all the time right here. now im going to shower so yea im gone

~kurtis~

take it

2004-04-18T06:49:01Z

this song is for us

take it

I feel like this won’t go away
No matter how hard I try
To squeeze my eyes shut
So I can’t see
the pain in you this pain in me - in me

But everything that I can say to you
Won’t help you
everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it

I know that I am really not here
To represent what I am not clear
About in my head
sometimes I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do

But everything that I can say to you
Won’t help you
everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it

Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel
maybe tomorrow won’t be so bad.
I know it

’cause I once felt that way
Nothing I could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow

Make it go away
Just make it go away
She’ll make it go away

drinkerofsorrow @ 2004-04-18T01:03:00

2004-04-18T06:11:49Z

yea today was gay. had to get up at 5:00 cause i had a soccer tournament. first game we got r asses kicked 0-4. the coach didnt play me cause i was late (what a jackass, thats y we lost by so much). then the second game we won 2-1. wow i got played this game. i scored both goals. this kid with the # 22 was pissing me off cause he was a huge trash talker, he blocks my shot and was like "what now u didnt score" i was like "i doesnt matter buddy, we r still winning 2-0" then when i was running for the ball he jumped in front of me so i couldnt get the ball. if he new me better he would of known i dont take that type of bullshit. i ran the mother fucking kid over and he whined and cryed about it. fuck him he desevred it. after that i was thinking about a lot of things in the car ride home. sad, depressing, things that pissed me off, um and sad things. yea. when i got home i was so tired i fell asleep. (sry marissa i didnt call u) and now im bored so yea im gone

~kurtis~

i saw this on a lot of ppls lj's nad i wanted to fit in

2004-04-13T03:28:37Z

--->Name On Birth Certificate? Kurt Daniel Beedie
--->Nicknames? kurtis kurty kury, beast, luke (haha brad) jackass, and i think thats it
--->Any other names you might have? psh i dono asshole maybe
--->Would you change your name? kurt is a cool name. no fuckin way im changing it
--->If So, what would you change it to? HELL NO
--->Where do you live? peoplesuckville
--->Where have you lived? Naperville (sadly my whole life)
--->Where would you like to live? anywhere beuatiful
--->Where are you glad you don't live? middle asia (that place is fucked up)
--->Hobbies? soccer, football, b ball sometimes, ps2, comp., um food, um magic the gathering (ha im such a loser), food, sleep, and food. o yea working out too.
--->Hidden Talents? i can clap my had with one finger, and i can do what i call the beedie flip :). ha maybe ull just have to see what else i have to give. :)
--->Do you think you're attractive? not really
--->Do others find you attractive? doubt it
--->What do you think is your best feature? i like my hair (tho it knots easy)
--->What do others think is your best feature? plz
--->What do you think is your worst feature? ha my imploding chest
--->What do others think is your worst feature? ppl say im a asshole. i dono im beginning to think there just drama kings and queens.
--->Do you like your personallity? Yea. if u dont like it, then kill me and end ur misery.
--->Do others like your personallity? once again im an "asshole"
--->Do you think youre funny? meh sometimes
--->Do others think you funny? i hope so or i wouldnt be much fun now would i
--->Do you like your family? at times
--->Do they like you? i get into a lot of fights, but i think they like me.

have you ever...

--->Had a serious illness? does the chicken pox count?
--->Been happy about someones death? cant say that i have
--->Killed an animal? bugs and shit, i try to kill rabbits tho cause my dad says i get 5 bucks if i do.
--->Been on stage? a couple of times
--->Joined a gang? ha in naperville. dont make me laugh
--->Been mentally disturbed? yes
--->Smoked? no drunks r bad
--->Drank? noooooooooooooo :\ ok like once
--->Stolen? lots of times. :) im a bad boy yes i am
--->Used someone? i would never have the heart to use somebody cause it seems like thats all i ever do is get used but someone. and trust me this hurts so bad inside i couldnt say more the 3 words in a sentence.
--->Wished to die? if it would make all the ppl in my life that made a difference happy yes i have
--->Streaked? no but not for long. that seems fun
--->Questioned God's existence? never have, never will
--->Cursed at God? i say god damnit but im saying god plz damn whatever im getting pissed at, not damn u god. geez that is evil.
--->Stalked someone online? is hat possible?
--->Had a sexual fantasy? um maybe
--->Taken pills? yea

For a billion dollars would you...

--->Kill your parents? NO
--->Eat an ant farm? yeah.
--->Have same gender sex? sry im not the ACDC type
--->Kill your best friend? HE IS ALREADY FUCKIN DEAD!!! >:0
--->Hold up a convenience store? meh
--->Shoot yourself in the leg? no
--->Eat another person? wtf?
--->Jump off a three story building? y not
--->Walk naked in a mall? hell yea that would be fun
--->Shave your head? no i love my hair
--->Drink human blood? mmmmm yummy
--->Box with a kangaroo? that would be kick ass
--->Kill the president? depends on the president
--->Slap an old person? yea im so evil
--->Eat your own vomit? mmmm yummy
--->Eat a booger? ha sure whats a booger going to do to u?
--->Strip for Osama Bin Laden? nasty

Out of my friends, who is the...

--->Loudest? Me
--->Quietest? i dono
--->Smartest? mark and cortney
--->Dumbest? hm liz
--->Cutest? me haha jk marissa
--->Ugliest? me for sure.
--->Funniest? too many
--->Dullest? um dono
--->Most Fashionable? fashion doesnt mean much to a anyone but my mom
--->Least Fashionable? mom
--->Most Optimistic? yea
--->Most Pessimistic? stonerboners
--->Cries Most? i dono all of them had to cry sometime
--->Cries Least? dono.
--->Most Trustworthy? rachel
--->Least Trustworthy? a couple, ppl that play me and think they can win but they cant
--->Most Honest? dono
--->Least Honest? a lot
--->Best for advice? dr. phil
--->Worst for advice? dr. phil
--->Most likely to become gay? ha chris ingham o wait he is gay nvm
--->Most likely to become famous? cortney he is smart enough
--->Most likely to become a cereal killer? chris ingham
--->Most likely to commit suicide? hopefully nobody
--->Most likey to go mentally insane? chris ingham
--->Most likely to pose for playboy? me :) ha
--->Most likey to become a saint? i dono thats was stupid
--->Most likely to become president? MAGGIE!(says marissa)
--->Who would you trust with your life? a lot of ppl if u want to no just ask me and ill tell u if ur own of them or not. but the most would have to be rachel.

My Favorite...

--->Letter? k
--->Color? green or gold
--->Number? 4
--->Word? douche fuck or quief eater. one of those two
--->Movie? happy gilmore
--->Rapper? Eminem
--->Pop group? ha pop
--->Rock band? i dono a lot mostly korn and slipknot
--->R&B? meh
--->Pop singer? ha pop
--->R&b group? meh
--->Shape? rainbow ha jk i dono andthing that looks fucked up
--->Person? how can u have that?
--->Relative? sister kristen
--->Old Song? um like 5 yrs old, 10 yrs old? 5 years i would be korns freak on a leash and 10 years it would be peaches made band some random band.
--->New Song? korn- when will this end or i did my time
--->CD? korn-follow the leader
--->T.v Show? tv is good
--->Movie Soundtrack? haha. the never ending story, (ha great songs on that)
--->Channel? mtv or mtv2
--->Parent? both
--->Restaurant? food is good
--->Drink? RC
--->Food? mmmmmm food
--->Snack? anyhing that tastes good
--->Shoe Brand? vans
--->Season? winder and spring
--->Sport? football
--->Dance? anything to get my groove on
--->Weapon? i think the coolest weapon is a scythe but the best named weapon is the bastard sward haha.
--->Sin? dont hurt me god.
--->Smell? marissa's hair
--->Shampoo? anything works doesnt it?

Last person you...

--->kissed? marissa
--->Hugged? brianna or hannah or danielle one of those three. (from crone)
--->Slept with? bed
--->Licked? cat
--->Ate? do u want me to eat u?
--->Cursed out? i dono i curse a lot
--->Intensionally hurt? myself
--->Punched? i think jeremy yea thats it jeremy
--->Loved? :(. a brokened heart leads to a broken soul
--->Killed? yea with the gun i dont have
--->Danced with? myself, ha i love my skippy dance
--->Liked? marissa nad still do
--->Stalked? the cat
--->Hated? i dono. i still hate them all
--->Gave the finger to? hannah in science today. ha take that
--->Cried with? myself
--->Fought with? sister nichole (bitch)
--->Talked with? marissa
--->Laughed with? my dad
--->Made bleed? brianna (from crone)im so sry
--->Cuddled with? marissa. well i did cuddle with the cat today cause it likes me now but the cat isnt important enough
--->Played with? tom, and no not in that kind of way. geez u sick fucks
--->Ate with? Myself
--->Hung out with? tom
--->Sung with? myself

im a diablo!

2004-04-10T21:39:44Z

a lil poem i wrote last night cause i couldnt sleep and i was thinking about a lot of things.

the pain! the regrets! the anger!
i am hated. the person that nobody knows (hated)
what do you do when you are meek
when you try o show no flaws
but the people play you
you your kindness for weakness
you cant do anything but think
"how the hell did i get here"

I think in my head with sorrow
why the fuck do I try to make people happy
and am I trying hard enough
I saystuff to make people laugh and have fun
yet the tae is seriously when its just a fucking joke
why cant people have a good time for once
do they seek it? do they find it?
do they want it? do they desevre it?

no! and they never will.
no fun comes when you care about everything
so many times i'm just an asshole
is it me being an asshole or is it you being drama queens?
yes hats it you al dramatize everything
loose the drama ad move on with ur life
you hate m, you think im an asshole
THEN JUST FUCKIN KILL ME AND END YOUR MISREY!

O WAIT! YOU CAN'T I'M ALREADY DEAD!
THI ISNT LIFE ITS A FUCKIN HELLHOLE!
I AM DIABLO! i AM THE LORD OF TERROR!
YOUR ALL MY MINIONS IN THIS HELLISH STRONGHOLD!
YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST HIDE THE TRUE YOU!
NOBODY WILL EVER KNOW WHATS ON YOUR MIND!
WRONG! YOUR SO EASY TO FIGURE OUT!
NEXT TIME, NO WHO YOU PLAY GAMES WITH, CUASE I NEVER LOOSE!

IF YOUR 555 THEN IM 666!
ALL YOU ARE IS JUST ANOTHER VICTIM!
SO GO AHEAD AND KILL ME, IF U GOT THE BALLS!
REMEMBER ONE THING, PAYBACKS A BITCH!
I'M FUCKIN SATAN, I DONT TAKE BULLSHIT!
NOT EVEN DEATH CAN SAVE U FROM ME!
I'LL HAUNT YOU, I'LL STALK YOU, I'LL MAKE U SORRY!
I'LL BE IN YOUR DREAMS,I'LL MAKE U INSANE!

MY MIND CAN'T BE PLAYED WITH!
YOU DON'T FUCKIN KNOW ME!
ADVICE FOR YOU IN THE FUTURE!
DONT FUCKIN JUDGE ME!

good Riddance

2004-04-09T21:36:04Z

Good Riddance

Another turning point
A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
Directs you where to go
So make the best of this test
And don’t ask why
It’s not a question
But a lesson learned in time
It’s something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of
Good health and good time
Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial
For what it’s worth
It was worth all the while
It’s something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

It’s something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

It’s something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

got the life

2004-04-09T19:17:05Z

this song kicks ass

got the life

HATE SOMETHING,SOMETIMEM SOMEWAY,
SOMETHING KICKED ON THE FLOOR FOR ME.
SOMETHING, INSIDE.
I’ll never ever follow.
SO GIVE... ME... SOME... THING... THAT... IS... FOR... REAL!
I’ll never ever follow.

Get your boogie on.
get your boogie on.

HATE SOMETHING, SOMEWHERE, EACH DAY,
DEALING WITHOUT FORGIVENESS.
WHY? THIS SHIT INSIDE.
Now everyone will follow.
SO GIVE... ME... NOTH... ING... JUST... FEEL.
And now this shit will follow.

GOD BEGS ME. the more i see the light he whats to see.
GOD TOLD ME, I’ve already got the life, oh I say...
GOD BEGS ME -- he’ll never see the life, he wants to see.
GOD TOLD ME, I’ve already got the life, oh I say...

Each day I can feel it swallow, inside something took from me.
I don’t feel your deathly ways.
Each day I feel so hollow, inside I was beating me.
You will never see, so come dance with me.

Dance with me
dance with me
dance with me
dance with me
dance with me
dance with me!
MMMMMEEEEEEEEEEE!

GOD BEGS ME, but now I see the light, he wants to see.
GOD TOLD ME, I’ve already got the life, oh I say...
GOD BEGS ME, the more I see the life, he wants to see.
GOD TOLD ME, I’ve already got the life...

Got the life!
got the life!
got the life!
got the life!
got the life!
got the life!
got the life!
got the life!

Got... the... life.

let's get this party started

2004-04-09T03:25:00Z

let's get this party started

When it’s crying
Take me on second place
Which you don’t often find
I see a family walking
Always thinking of
Being somewhere else in time
So I fall I fall face
In a rut
I can’t seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn’t matter
Each time I wake
I’m somehow feeling the truth
I can’t handle

LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED
I'M SICK OF BEGGING YOU
YOU MAKE ME FEEL INSANE
WHICH I DID TO U
LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED
YOU MAKE ME FEEL INSANE
I WANT TO BE THE ONE
TO MAKE MYSELF SIGN

Time is ticking
It makes me feel content
With what I have inside
Constant paranoia
Surrounds me
Everyone I see
Is out to get me

So I fall I fall face
In a rut
I can’t seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn’t matter
Each time I wake
I’m somehow feeling the truth
I can’t handle

LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED
I'M SICK OF BEGGING YOU
YOU MAKE ME FEEL INSANE
WHICH I DID TO U
LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED
YOU MAKE ME FEEL INSANE
I WANT TO BE THE ONE
TO MAKE MYSELF SIGN

You make me feel insane

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn’t matter
Each time I wake
I’m somehow feeling the truth
I can’t handle

LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED
I'M SICK OF BEGGING YOU
YOU MAKE ME FEEL INSANE
WHICH I DID TO U
LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED
YOU MAKE ME FEEL INSANE
I WANT TO BE THE ONE
TO MAKE MYSELF SIGN

i dono blah

2004-04-05T00:55:49Z

i dono today sucked. no sleep at all cause i was to busy thinking about personal stuff. made gay soccer fields and yet again my sister finds a way to yell at me (i swear to god if she yells at me one more fucking time for some stupid shit im going to jack her in the face). the i had a soccer game. lost when we should of won.number 20 kept on humping me. it was so nasty and sick. i knocked him over yea he backed off of me. muahahahhahahaahaha. then when i come home i find out my sister broke my chair in my room. wtf gayness
yea so today sucked way to spend the last day of spring break. last thing i have to say is thx to all of u who have wrote in my lj. it means a lot to me. i love u all.
im gone

~kurtis~

requiem

2004-04-03T19:54:07Z

Requiem

We were ready for anything

Everyone knows some pain
I see the loss every time some ones says your name
When you know someone who shines hard
A soul of the age who dosn’t care
Who the fuck you are
You had a friend, a brother who was everything
But he had to go away... that was yesterday
I’ve lost a lot of people in my time
The good, the bad, the unreal,
And the one who shine
So I know you all understand
When I say that untilthey left
We were ready for anything... but this

You are not gone
We keep you here inside us
You are not gone
We know you’re still beside us
You are not gone
We have this light you gave to us

Now it’s time to lay to rest our friend
And through these songs
His memory will never fucking end
We wiil see that
Through this loss we’ll shed some light on you
Until the day you left us

We were ready for anything...but this

You are not gone
We keep you here inside us
You are not gone
We know you’re still beside us
You are not gone
We have this light you gave to us

Why’d you have to go? we never had a chance
I can’t believe it so I wont asmit it
Life ain’t shit without you in it

You are not gone
We keep you here inside us
You are not gone-
We know you’re still beside us
You are not gone-
We have this light you gave to us

Every body says the light that shines the brightest
Burns out fast
But what they never say is
All the light they give us lasts
We hold the memoriesand cherish
Everyday we had
But we would give it up in a second
Just to have you
Back!!!

surfacing

2004-04-03T08:42:03Z

ths song is ur new national FUCKIN ANTHEM THIS SONG IS CALL SURFACING!

FUCK U ALL!

RUNNING OUT OF WAYS TO RUN!
I can’t see, I can’t be
Over and over and under my skin
All this attention is DOING ME IN!

FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!

PICKING THROUGH THE PARTS EXPOSED!
Taking shape, taking shag
Over and over and under my skin
All this momentum is DOING ME IN!

FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!

BURN!

YOU GOT ALL MY LOVE, LIVIN' IN YOUR OWN HATE!
DRIPPIN' HOLE MAN, HARD STEP, NO FATE!
SHOW YOU NUTHIN', BUT I AIN'T HOLDIN' BACK!
EVERY DAMN WORD I SA IS A SNEAK ATTACK!
WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU!
AIN'T A FUCKING THING YOU CAN DO!
GAVE THIS CUZ YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GET ME!
I AM THE VERY DISEASE YOU PRETEND TO BE!

I am the push that makes you move
i am the push that makes you move
i am the push that makes you move
I AM THE PUSH THAT MAKES YOU MOVE!

FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!

FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!

BURN!

the song that i lisson to when i feel like shit. just thought u should no

o yea

2004-03-30T06:48:38Z

to way a bit boring at first. i woke up at like 1:30. and it was pretty gay cause nobody was home but my sister and i had to do all the chores (gayness). then my dad came home and i had to do all this yard work. first i had to get this ferdilizer stick things had hit them into the ground with a hammer by r trees and bushes and stuff like that. yea that was ok but i got to be pretty messy. then i had to ferdilize the grass and i got wet cause the grass was still wet. so when i was done i had to take a shower cause i bet i smelled like ass. then i got online and started to talk to marissa :). we talked aout what we were going to do tonite. we were going to watch chuckie, but they didnt have in on VHS at blockbuster when marissa went to go get it so we didnt have a movie to watch. before i went to her house tho, i got this huge speech from my parents about how i need to be responsible for myself and not do drugs,sex, respect girls, and all this other bullshit. i listened well like a good lil boy o:). it was really weird tho cause i heard the same thing when they would talk to my sisters about it weird shit right there. yea so after that i went to marissa's at 7:00. we didnt no what to watch, so we just watched the land before time (i love that movie so much. marissa never saw it before and she owned the movie (weird). yea she laughed at very thing in the movie. but i had to laugh too cause it was funny. esp. the part were there all this birds fighting over this one cherry, great shit right there. o boy. after that was over we watched some tv. marissa was laying in my arms a lot of the time. i think she got so confortable she was about o fall asleep. i was waiting for the right moment to make the move and it finally came. she didnt expected it tho haha. i guess im unperdictalbe at times. then see tryed to hurt me by squeezing my hands, but it didnt work. its ok tho marissa ur still strong to me. but my shirt said squeeze me not my hand, way to read. jkjk. we both had fun. but then my dad came and ruined it. i didnt want to leave. o well thast the way it goes. we huged and kissed eachother goodbye now im just only and talkin to ppl having fun. and dont think i havev any more to say then it was a bad day turn to a very, very good day. im gone

~kurtis

i love pornooooooooooooooo

2004-03-29T00:15:10Z

whoa lots a ppl had this so i just wanted to fit in ha but all the ppl that have these r girls im like the women yes anyways yea today ways kinda gay i just woke up to help the dad do some gay shit. then i had a soccer game we won 5-4 but i had to fuckin score all the 5 goals damn team blows chodes o well i got a new record for the most goals scored in a game for me so i guess thast good no im just siting here cause im lazy o well so yea lalalalalalalalalalalala i love pornooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo anyways im just talking o marissa right now cause nobody else will. la well yea nothing to say well i do but i ahve to save it for another time so yea
and fuck all of u if u think i space to much and take that yea im gone cya

~kurtis~